Jackie started the night sleeping on top of her sleeping bag in her flannel pajamas, but somewhere over the course of the night she got cold enough that she slipped into her sleeping bag without waking up. In her dreams, Mark had not stopped the idea of a midnight skinnydip; they had stripped off their clothes, gone down to to the little beach, froliced in the water a little, splashed water on each other. After a while, in her dream, they'd walked back up to the tent, and he'd taken her in his arms for a long, heartfelt kiss, bare bodies pressing together, his manhood pressing hard against her, making her ache for what would come... and... and...

She found herself surprised and a little sorry on waking to be in her own sleeping bag, wearing her flannel pajamas. The dream had been so real, so wonderful.

Outside, she heard the hiss of one of the stoves. Mark was making coffee, already fully dressed. "Have a good night's sleep?" he asked.

"I think so," she said, still unable to shake off her dream. "Did we go swimming last night, after all?"

"Did you have the same dream I did?" he asked.

"I think so," she said shyly.

"God," he said. "That alligator was as big as a house. I'm not sure how bad I want to go swimming there today." Mark didn't say that his dream had ended up much the same as Jackie's, although it was a bit more adventurous getting there.

"I guess I'm glad we didn't go skinnydipping then," she said. "It would have been fun."

"We'll have to do it some time when we know there aren't any alligators around," he smiled. "You want a cup of coffee?"

"Of course," she replied. He poured hot water and mixed her a cup of instant.

While she lay there sipping it, half out of her sleeping bag, he busied himself around the campsite. "I've been thinking about it," he said. "That's a long walk into town, and I'm not sure we want to leave the campsite unattended. After all, other people are going to start showing up to wait for the launch. Why don't I make the hike today, while it's still early and cool for the first part, anyway? I can get water, anyway, although I don't know what else will be open on a Sunday morning. Then, tomorrow, when the stores will be open, you can make the water run and go shopping for a swimsuit and whatever else you want."

She thought about it for only a moment; his suggestion made sense. "Take what water you need," she suggested. "Leave the rest here, and I can take a sponge bath while you're gone."

"Sounds good," he told her. "I'll hold your coffee if you'll dump my pack out and hand it out here. I'll be long enough that you can sleep in a while if you want."

"Get sunscreen and sunglasses, if you can find them," she added as an afterthought.

There was perhaps a couple of quarts of water left in some pans when he put the canteens and water bottle in his otherwise empty pack, and headed for the highway. Jackie set the coffee cup out into the sand and snuggled back down into her sleeping bag.

The sun was barely peeking over the horizon behind Mark as he reached the highway and set out on the causeway toward the far shore. The dew was still heavy, and he was a little surprised that there was no fog; the air was quite heavy. He would have hitched a ride if he could. There was little traffic on the causeway, and virtually all of it was headed the other way; not surprising, as people would have to be getting to work over at the launch complex. While work had probably gone on all night, there would be people that would only be working days, even though this was a Sunday.

With the pack riding lightly on his back, he settled into an even, fast pace, not like the slow, heatbeaten trudge of the morning before. He hoped he would be able to hitch a ride coming back, when the sun would be up higher and beating down on him.

Although it was a good idea to leave Jackie at the campsite, it hadn't been necessary. But, he had wanted to get off by himself for a while, to be alone, to think about things. His dream of the night before had been all too real; Jackie had come to him willingly, although still frightened by the alligator she'd stepped on in the dark. While he had enjoyed having Jackie along on the trip, it was clear that having her along was going to include complications that he hadn't thought of when the offer had been made.

Damn it, did he want to marry the girl? That it would be an inevitable result of the trip was not a foregone conclusion, but it seemed like every day something happened that drew them closer. It was getting harder and harder to be like a brother to her; she had released things in him that had been bottled up since he'd said goodbye to Mei-Ling.

The thought of Mei-Ling startled him; he realized that it had been some time since he had thought of the little Chinese-Thai prostitute, and now, his mental image of her wasn't as clear as it had been even a couple of weeks before.

Clearly he was falling in love with Jackie.

There it was; he'd never admitted it to himself before, but once the word was out, it felt comfortable.

What would it be like to be married to Jackie? It would remove the barriers between them, barriers they themselves had set. He'd never really thought about what it would be like to be married, to Jackie or to anyone else, even Mei-Ling. Jackie was a nice girl, quiet and contemplative, intelligent and sensible, interested in many things he was interested in. He thought about several of his friends that had long since been married, and some of them divorced, and he thought of a few of the latter that he decided had never been as comfortable with each other as he was with Jackie.

But people change; clearly, this trip was going to change both of them, perhaps for the better, perhaps not. After all, marriage hadn't worked out for Jackie's mother, certainly not to her benefit, or anyone elses.

Mark remembered back to the cold of the hanger in Spearfish Lake, with Jackie on one side of the wing, himself on the other, when she had told him about her mother. Mark had no idea of what could have shoved her mother over the edge, but doubted that it had been her father; he was too nice a guy. It had to have been something inside. Was Jackie right to fear that it could happen to her, too? Where would that leave him?

He pounded on up the causeway with an even pace, thoughts heavy on his mind. It was clear to him that he and Jackie did not have a lot farther to go before turning back would be a lot harder. It would not have taken much of a suggestion last night, not much effort on his part, to have found himself making love to Jackie, whether she was ready or not, and he suspected that she was closer than either of them thought. How close neither of them would know, until some gesture, some remark, some touch would find themselves in each other's arms, and under ordinary circumstances he would have welcomed it, but it begged two questions: was she important enough to him to not risk losing her by doing something before its proper time — but was she important enough to him to risk hanging on to her, in spite of an unknown factor of what could come?

He knew for damn sure that he'd better be able to give the right answer to both questions before he went too much farther. For the moment, the tentative answer to both of them was "yes".

Perhaps sex might come without facing up to a final decision about the second question — but if it did, it would be awkward if the answer to the second question turned out to ultimately be "no" — or if it turned out to be wrong.

If she hadn't been with him on the trip, then neither question would probably have come up — but if he hadn't brought her with him, he might well have missed something worth the effort.

The thoughts churned over and over in his mind as he pounded his way across the causeway — Jackie, her mother, sex, his own desires, marriage. Then, out of nowhere, came a thought that made him stop and sit down on a rock, looking out over the water.

Obviously, some kind of stress, whatever it was, must have had something to do with what had happened to Jackie's mother. The strain of Jackie living with him, with all the ongoing sex-related tension, had to be as stressful on her as it was on him.

Things bend before they break.

Perhaps how well Jackie stood up to the stress of traveling with him, living with him would give him a good idea of what he needed to know.

Oh, well. If Jackie couldn't take the stress, it was better to know now. If they wound up having sex, they wound up having sex. If it got awkward, it got awkward. The only thing to do would be to let nature take its course, without pushing matters, and see what happened.

If he could get along without a hard dick doing his thinking for him, so much the better, but if it happened, it happened.

Mark got back up and started toward the far shore, which seemed a lot nearer, now.

Jackie lay in her sleeping bag a while longer, but sleep wouldn't come. She knew she should have never had that cup of coffee; it had wakened her more than she would have liked. Finally, her aching bladder told her that she could wait no longer.

It was strange to go outside the tent knowing that Mark wasn't there. She did walk a ways away from the camp before relieving herself, but wasn't self-conscious about it like she had been before. She had only been with Mark a few days, now, but it seemed strange to have him away from her. She had grown comfortable with him, comfortable even with the thought that what she had dreamed might happen, could happen, and was even likely to happen, sooner or later. If it did happen, it would remove a lot of barriers between them; they could be even more comfortable with each other.

The question that she pondered as she started the stove going again, made some more coffee and brushed out her hair was whether to just go ahead and let it happen.

There wasn't a lot of water left, but with Mark gone and no one else around, it was too good an opportunity to take some sort of a bath to let pass. After giving it a good thought over coffee, while she sat on the sand in her pajamas, she realized that she would have a lot better bath if she went down to the beach and did her heavy washing, then came back up to the camp to rinse off in the fresh water.

It would have been better if she'd had a swimsuit, she knew, but the little beach was mostly out of sight of the highway, and even thinking about skinny-dipping with Mark had emboldened her a little. Without thinking about it too much, once she finished her coffee, she stripped off her pajamas, got a bar of soap, and walked nude down to the beach.

After Mark's remark about the alligator, she couldn't bring herself to go into the water very far, and she looked it carefully over before she waded in up to her knees, then sat down on the sandy bottom. The salt water didn't raise much of a lather with the little bar of soap, but she did feel a little cleaner after a while. Still, it seemed strange to be out there in the open, naked as a jaybird, and she made a quick job of it, then hiked back up to the camp.

A wet washcloth in what was left of the fresh water did a pretty good job of removing the stickiness of the salt water, and soon she stood under the sun shade, still nude, still a little surprised at her boldness. The sun was getting up a little now, putting a little warmth into what would obviously be a warm day, and the warmth of the sun and the gentle little breeze that had sprung up dried her off rapidly. It would be a long time before Mark got back, she realized, and the sun felt good, if still to early to add to her tan much, and feeling it some more would be nice.

Still nude, she picked up her as-yet unused towel and walked around to the sunward side of the hummock, where she spread the towel out on the sand and lay down on it.

She lay back and let the growing warmth of the sun course through her, stuck by the difference that only a few days could make. Even a few days ago, in the depths of a Spearfish Lake winter, she would have never dreamed of sunning herself naked, yet here she was, not thinking too much about it. A lot had happened in a very short time.

In the far-off distance, she could make out the top of the Saturn's gantry, just poking itself above the brush. Anyone on top of the gantry, with a telescope at least as good as Mark's, could get quite an eyeful if they were to happen to look in the right direction, she thought, although it didn't seem likely, and she wouldn't know if they did.

She thought about the rocket, and the pictures she had seen of it, thrusting itself up into the sky, and all of a sudden broke out laughing. She knew that some people saw the rocket at a phallic symbol, its powerful hard maleness thrusting itself up into... the thought lead inextricibly to the dream she had had of Mark, thrusting his powerful, hard maleness up into her as she lay there, wanton and anxious for it.

The symbolism was so trite that she couldn't help herself. They had come close last night; very close, indeed. A word, a nod, the slightest advance on her part and it would have happened; her virginity, this morning, would have been in the past tense, and she didn't know whether she was happy or sorry that it was still intact.

She thought about Kirsten, her old friend, with her fiance missing in Vietnam. Kirsten had been down that road, who knew how many times, out there on the top of Turtle Hill. She was paying for it now, in agony over her lost Henry, but she'd had a lot of fun with him before he left; she hadn't let the moment pass by. Dreams of Kirsten and Henry in the back seat on Turtle Hill brought her thinking directly to thoughts of Mark and herself, perhaps here on this very beach.

It would have been so easy... why hadn't she just kissed Mark, maybe let her hands wander a little, and let nature take its course? Was it because her dad and Sarah expected her to be a good girl? Was it because she had expected herself to be a good girl? Was it because she was supposed to be a good girl? Just what did her dad and Sarah think she was doing with Mark, anyway? They would have a pretty good suspicion of what was going on, and even though their suspicions were totally wrong, they wouldn't believe the truth. Perhaps, the next time the time was right, she should just let it happen...

Suppose she let it happen? Would they think any less of her? More important, would Mark think any less of her?

The thought surprised her. She knew she cared a lot about Mark, but ultimately, was he that important to her? Could she imagine herself married to Mark?

It was not hard to imagine. He was a nice guy, easily the nicest she had ever known. Unlike Hjalmer, she could see making a life with this quiet, intense man, and it didn't seem like an unpleasant life. Very likely, it had already started, and making it permanent didn't seem like such a big leap, now that she thought about it.

If everything went right, it could happen. If everything went right, they could make a life together... if everything went right.

It hadn't gone right with her mother, after all, and she had lived with the fear that things might not go right for her ever since she had been old enough to comprehend it. Was it fair to saddle Mark with a risk like that? Was it fair that she was saddled with it?

Worse, was it fair to saddle a child with it?

She lay back, amazed at the thought. Up to this point, she had only kissed Mark twice, once at the Spearfish Lake airport, and once at that airport in Kentucky, and here she was, thinking about having children with him!

Still, it was a fair question. Best answer it now, before things got too serious. Perhaps if she couldn't answer it now, she'd better get the money out of her pack and get a bus back to Spearfish Lake, before things got any deeper.

No, it wasn't fair to saddle a child with it. Whatever else happened, there would be no children, period. Deep in her gut, she realized that if she stayed on the trip with Mark, she'd better start taking precautions, just in case. It would at least put off the final answer to that question for a while, and it could wait a few years.

Was it fair to Mark? After all, it wasn't like he didn't know of her concern, although she should remind him if things got any more serious. Having fun wasn't a problem, even if the fun extended to sex when the time came. Marriage, though... perhaps she should try to keep the lid on, just in case.

The sun was getting up more, now. She didn't know how long Mark had been gone, or how soon he would be getting back, but she realized that she'd better get back to the tent and get some clothes on. It'd be best not to give him any ideas — today, anyway.

Jackie had her cutoffs and halter top back on when Mark got back to the tent, carrying a full pack. "I got water," he said. "I got us sunglasses and sunblock. Best of all," he said, setting the pack down, and opening it, "I got this."

"What?" Jackie asked.

Mark pulled the pack open. Jammed inside, so tight that she couldn't see how he had gotten it in there, was a styrofoam cooler. Inside was an ice-cold six pack of coke, the ice still rattling.

"Hey, that's great!" she said, impulsively putting her arms around him and giving him a quick kiss: number three, she counted in her mind.

"I was able to hitch a ride back," Mark said. "I wanted to get beer, but you can't on Sunday mornings."

"A beer would be nice," Jackie said, reaching into the cold water, pulling out one of the Cokes and opening it in one quick move, "But this is perfect."

It was still early the next morning when Jackie, dressed in blouse and cutoffs finished her coffee, picked up her pack with the now-empty styrofoam cooler and a small collection of both their dirty laundry stuffed inside, and started for the highway.

As much as she had sex on her mind while Mark had been gone yesterday, the afternoon and evening had been very low-key by comparison. She'd posed for another couple of drawings, that still came out making her more beautiful than she felt, but she was glad of the compliment. It turned out that he'd bought a book, but rather than curling up with it, suggested that they read it to each other. It turned out to be a good book, "Pilgrim at Tinker Creek" by Annie Dillard, and it led to a lot of discussion and not much reading. Still, it was nice to lay in the shade, with her head on his stomach, and read about life and nature along a mountain stream. They hadn't made it through the book, not by a long shot, and it looked like it would provide several interesting afternoons to come. She'd laid out in the sun a bit, too — although not naked, like she had been earlier. In the evening, they'd looked through the telescope some more, and had built a little fire out of dead brush and driftwood. It had been an idyllic day, one to remember as she started out across the causeway.

She was used to walking, and liked it, although not in the extreme heat they had endured Saturday. Her long legs carried her along rapidly, although the causeway seemed to stretch out endlessly. She resolved to stop and take a break somewhere along the way, but never felt quite like stopping, so she made good time across the causeway and turned to follow the highway into town.

As luck would have it, she did not have to go far towards the center of town before she found a doctor's office: the highest priority item on her mental shopping list, the one she hadn't revealed to Mark. The office wasn't open yet, a sign said, although it would be soon; she sat down to wait.

It was more than a little embarrassing to explain to both the receptionist and then the doctor why she had come, but she was hardly the first girl that the doctor had met who had her request; after a brief examination and history, she was given a prescription for six months worth of birth control pills, and told of a drug store at a shopping center a half a mile up the road.

With thanks that her stop at the doctor hadn't been worse, Jackie set out up the road to the shopping center. The druggist, fortunately, was a woman, and didn't have any smart remarks; Jackie stuffed the little oblong boxes into the side pocket of her pack, and resolved to keep them a secret from Mark. Still embarrassed, and glad no one knew her, she bought some condoms at the drug store, too, since the doctor had told her it would be a while before the pills took effect.

There was a clothing store a couple of doors up from the drug store, and Jackie went there, next. She quickly picked out another pair of shorts, and a couple of t-shirts, one of them reading "Cape Kennedy, Florida — America's Spaceport", the other one plain white. Then, she went looking for swimsuits.

With her long torso and slender build, Jackie was hard to fit for a one-piece swimsuit, which was what she really wanted, partly because it was what she was used to, and partly because it might not be so suggestive, but she didn't see anything that she liked that showed a chance of fitting. Finally, a short, heavy-set salesgirl with a thick southern accent told her, "You ought to try a bikini. You really have the build for one."

"You think so?" Jackie said. "I'm too thin for one."

"Nonsense," the girl said. "I wish I could wear one, but I'm too heavy. Now, you have the perfect build for a bikini, and since you're so hard to fit for a one-piece, you really ought to try one."

It finally came down to a choice between a green terry-cloth bikini, held together with plastic rings at the hips and between the breasts, and a nylon number with a brown and gray paisley type print; it seemed even scantier than the green one. "Which one do you like?" she asked the salesgirl.

"I think I like the brown one," the girl said. "I think it would be a little sexier on you. Besides, the nylon will dry out in about fifteen seconds, while the terry-cloth one will take all day. I don't like laying around in a wet swimsuit."

The salesgirl's argument made sense; Jackie decided to take the brown and gray one, but wondered if she'd have the courage to wear it in front of Mark. At least it was lightweight, and the top could double as a halter top. Maybe when they were backpacking, the bottom could double as a spare pair of panties, too, she realized.

With that under control, she put her purchases in the pack and headed back toward the causeway. She had seen a convenience store not far from the corner, and decided to tank up the water jugs and get some cold beer there; there was no point in carrying the weight an inch farther than necessary.

She stopped at the store, bought a candy bar and surveyed the magazine rack, but didn't see anything she really wanted to buy. She bought some food and ice and beer and filled the jugs, then realized that she was going to have to walk with the load back across the causeway in the warming morning, and the load would be at least as heavy as the load she'd packed over the causeway the first time. It would be hot when she got back; she didn't look forward to carrying the load, and wished that she dared hitchhike, as Mark had done the day before.

As she walked out of the store, a short, blonde girl about her age left a taller man beside a car with a home state license plate. Seeing the plate, so far away from home, made Jackie feel a little less far from home. "Hi, neighbor," she said, slinging her pack.

The girl came up to her. "Hi," she said. "Are you camping around here?"

"Over on the other side of the causeway," Jackie told her.

"Is your campground full?" the girl asked. "The woman inside said she doesn't know much about the campgrounds around here, and my husband and I are looking for a place to camp until the launch."

"We're not in a campground," Jackie told her. "My boyfriend and I are just tenting out in the scrub, just at the other end of the causeway. There's no johns or anything, but there's plenty of room."

The girl's husband came over an joined them. "All the campgrounds for miles around are full, and they aren't crazy about people tenting, anyway. They'd rather rent a site to someone with a motor home forty feet long."

"Well," Jackie said, "You're welcome to camp over around us, somewhere. I guess it's OK; we never asked. We just walked in off of the road a ways.

"Where'd you leave your car?"

"Didn't bring a car," Jackie said. "We flew in, and backpacked the rest of the way."

"You're walking?" the girl asked. "We'll give you a ride."

Jackie's new friends proved to be Roger and Kathy Griswold, from Arvada Center, perhaps a hundred and fifty miles south of Spearfish Lake; Jackie could remember flying over the little crossroads town while she had been following where she and Mark were going, their first day out of Spearfish Lake.

It only took a few minutes to get back across the causeway. A hundred yards past the little path into their campsite, Roger found a little-used two-rut path out into the brush, that stopped after a short ways. Probably a place where kids went to park and make out, Jackie realized, but a perfect place to leave the car where it wouldn't be noticed.

She lead the hometown couple into their camp, where Mark was standing, shaving, wearing a t-shirt and a swimsuit he'd bought the day before. "I brought us some company," Jackie told him.

"I didn't expect we'd be out here by ourselves forever," Mark said.

"This is Roger and Kathy Griswold," Jackie said, making introductions. "And this is my boyfriend, Mark."

"You like some coffee?" Mark said. "The water's hot."

They had to scramble to come up with four cups — Jackie wound up drinking coffee out of a small cookpot as they sat and got to know each other. "I take it you're down here to see the launch, too," Roger said. "I've never seen one. It ought to be great, but as soon as we see it, we're about going to have to be getting home."

"Vacation's about over, huh?" Mark asked.

"No," Roger said. "I'm a farmer. I work about 800 acres of grain and dairy cattle with my dad."

"Seems like it's getting time to start plowing," Jackie commented.

"Well, normally it would be," Roger said. "But it's been kind of cold and wet, and when I talked to my dad a couple of days ago, he said we might as well stay over an extra week, since we're on our honeymoon and all."

Mark shrugged. "I guess, being a farmer, that June wouldn't exactly be the prime time for a honeymoon."

Roger snickered a little; Kathy set down her coffee cup and blushed. "Let's just say that our wedding was a little unplanned. I mean, we sorta had to get married," she finally stammered.

"We were going to get married anyway," Roger said, just a little shyly. "But it didn't quite come off like we'd planned. But, I think it'll work out for the best."

Mark looked at Jackie, who looked back at him, just as hard. Not a word was exchanged, but their faces carried all the communication they needed. Jackie was very relieved at her stop at the doctor's and her purchase at the pharmacy earlier that morning. "If that's what you think, then that's all that matters, I guess," Mark said diplomatically.

Now it was Roger's turn to blush a little. "It's just that this sort of thing isn't supposed to happen to Methodists."

"But it did," Kathy added. "It ought to work out in time, though."

Mark shook his head. "The best thing is to not let it bother you. If you want to camp here, let's finish our coffee and Jackie and I will help you unload. There's a nice little spot to camp around the bay a bit."

Camping out of their car Roger and Kathy had quite a bit more gear than the backpacking Mark and Jackie, and several trips were required through the brush to the little campsite fifty or so yards away. They had a large umbrella tent, and heavier sleeping bags, a cooler and a camp stove, another sun fly, and even a table that cunningly unfolded to seat four in only moderate discomfort. The day was warm by the time the Griswold's camp was set up. "You guys like a cold beer?" Roger asked.

"Love one," both Jackie and Mark chorused. The four of them sat down under the Griswold's sun fly and talked about their travels. It was clear that Roger and Kathy had tried to see everything there was to see in Florida in two weeks. The Griswolds, however, were fascinated by Mark and Jackie's trip. "I'm tired of traveling after two weeks," Kathy said. "I'm just looking forward to staying in the same place for a few days. I can't imagine being gone all summer, or even longer."

"Well, we're still getting used to it," Jackie said, sipping at her beer.

"You rebuilt this airplane of yours?" Roger asked.

"We rebuilt it, Jackie and I," Mark said. "In fact, we only finished it a week ago today."

"It does not seem that long," Jackie said. "It seems like it must have been a year."

"I just think you guys are going to have a wonderful time," Kathy said. "Me, I'm about ready for a swim. Is that beach any good?"

"I've only been out about waist deep, earlier this morning," Mark said, "But the bottom is pretty solid. You mind if we join you two?"

"Sure, come on," Roger said. "We'll get changed and meet you down there."

Mark drained his beer, but Jackie took another sip and brought the can with her. They walked around the hummock where the telescope sat, and down to their tent.

As soon as they were out of earshot of the Griswolds, Jackie said in a low voice, "Do you get the feeling of 'There but for the grace of God, et cetra'?"

"I don't know," Mark told her. "They obviously fit together pretty well. It might not be all bad. I've only got one question."

"What's that?"

"What happened to our brother and sister act?"

"I don't know," Jackie said. "I guess I'd just be more ashamed of lying than I am of the truth."

Since Mark already had his swimsuit on, he waited outside while she changed. She hadn't confronted the thought of actually having to wear the gray and brown bikini in front of Mark, yet, although she knew that sooner or later she would; wearing it in front of total strangers made her want to hesitate even more, although there wasn't a lot of choice, now. She wiggled out of her clothes and pulled the tiny pieces of fabric on; there seemed to be very little cloth and an awful lot of her. She hesitated at the tent flap, a little scared to be seen as nearly undressed as she was. She was going to be so embarrassed...

She heard Kathy's voice float up from the water: "Are you guys coming?"

"Be right with you," Mark called back.

There was no putting it off. Mark would have to see her dressed like she was. For an instant, she thought of pulling on a T-shirt, but knew that only put off what was to come; then, she threw back the tent flap, crawled outside, and stood up.

Mark let out a low whistle. "Wow," he said. "You look great. You make me proud you're my girlfriend."

Having faced up to the inevitable, Jackie turned around so he could get a better view. "You like it?" she asked.

"No," he said. "I love it. Let's get down to the beach."

Before she could have any more second thoughts, he took her by the hand, and together they walked down to where Roger and Kathy waited.

The other couple was already frolicing in the water when Mark and Jackie arrived. It hadn't been quite clear before, but now they could see that Roger, though shorter than Mark, was considerably more muscled; with his hat off, they could see that he was already starting to go bald. Kathy probably weighed about what Jackie did, but that weight was packed into a frame that was nearly a foot shorter; she was a lot more rounded out than Jackie, and perhaps even a little heavy for her red and white bikini that was scanty even by Florida standards.

The next half hour was rambunctious; there was a lot of splashing and yelling and horseplay, but very little swimming actually went on. Jackie didn't have much time to feel self-conscious about wearing her new bikini; she was having too much fun playing in the sun and the water with Mark and their new-found friends.

After a while, the four of them wound up laying on towels on the shoreline, talking and letting the sun and the air dry them off. "This is such a great spot," Kathy gushed. "Jackie, I'm glad we met you. This is the best time I've had on this trip."

"You mean we haven't had other great times?" Roger said, joking.

"This whole trip has been wonderful, you big old dog, you," the little blonde said, rolling on her side to face her husband.

"That's more like it," he said, rolling over to face his wife. Mark and Jackie could see the other couple's arms around each other, with some heavy-duty kissing going on as two pairs of hands wandered over their partner's bodies nearly oblivious of the watching eyes.

"I'm glad you brought them," Mark whispered to Jackie, laying close beside him. "They've been fun."

Jackie rolled up on her side, mostly to look at Mark, but she couldn't help but see the scene a few feet away. She could see Roger's hands untie the back string of Kathy's bikini, and could not help but wonder how it would feel to have Mark's arms around her like that. "They seem to be enjoying themselves," she whispered back, then rolled over farther to kiss him.

In but an instant, she felt Mark's arms enfold her, and her arms went around him. She could feel the roughness of the sand sticking to his arms as they pressed on her skin, laid bare by the bikini, and could feel his hands as they groped up and down her body, and everything felt wonderful. Somewhere in there, she could feel Mark's hand on her breast, and she didn't flinch, like she had when Hjalmer had brushed her there; his touch felt warm and glowing, and she arched her back to draw herself closer to him.

How long they lay there, kissing and groping and nuzzling, they never knew. It seemed like an instant, and it seemed like forever, and neither of them wanted it to stop.

Looking over Mark's shoulder, Jackie could see Roger and Kathy get up. "Look," she whispered to her boyfriend.

Mark rolled over and broke contact to look over his shoulder, to see their friends scamper up the path to their tent, arm in arm; Kathy was carrying her bikini top in her hand. He rolled back over to face Jackie and whispered, "Now, is that inspiring, or what?"

Jackie pulled him tight and kissed him again. They kissed for a long time before she whispered in his ear, "Do you want to go up to the tent?"

Mark kissed her briefly and whispered back, "Do you really want to?"

Jackie pulled him tight, and was silent for a moment. "I guess not," she said, "But I'm willing to if you want to."

They pulled each other tight and held on for a while before he whispered back, "When you're ready, I'm ready." And he was ready, painfully so. "But if you're not ready," he continued, "Then I'm not."

"I want to say yes so bad it hurts," Jackie said, a tear coming to her eye. "But I don't think we should." Mark held her tight; she could feel his strong arms around her bare body. She stayed silent for quite a while, just trying to draw herself closer and convince herself she had made the right decision. "I mean, she's married and she's already pregnant."

"It's not like it's the same thing," Mark whispered back.

Jackie was crying a little more, now, and Mark could feel it. "She was pregnant before she got married, and I don't want that to happen to us," Jackie said. "I don't want to get pregnant and have you feel that you have to marry me."

"It seems like it worked out for them," Mark said quietly, "But I guess you're right. Maybe we'd better quit this and go get dressed."

"That's not it," Jackie said. "I don't ever want to have a baby and have it risk what happened to my mother happen to me." Jackie was quiet for a little longer. Mark could hear her sob a little, and then say, "Can we just lay here and hold on to each other?"

"Of course," Mark said, pulling her to him even more closely, and she held on as if the whole world would come apart if she let go.

Neither of them knew how long it was that they lay there, holding on to each other and kissing, but after a while, Jackie was able to realize just how much she enjoyed holding on to Mark, and having him hold on to her. There came a time that she was able to just rest her head on Mark's shoulder and enjoy the closeness. "Mark," she said finally, "Would it offend you if I told you that I'm falling in love with you, and I just don't know how to handle it?"

"Would it offend you if I told you the same thing?" he murmured.

"I mean it," she said, rolling onto her back, but keeping her head on his shoulder. "You've been so incredibly kind and understanding to me, and I just don't know what I should do."

"Well, just realize that I'm falling in love with you, too, and I don't know how to handle it," he said. "But I keep being afraid that I'll make the wrong move and blow it, and I don't want to."

"That's just it," Jackie said. "You're such a nice guy, I'm not sure that you should be falling in love with me. You could be letting yourself in for something neither of us can handle. I've had to live with it, but I don't know if I should ask you to live with the risk, too." She sat up, and looked at him. "I meant what I said about not daring to have a baby. I know I can't ask a child to live with the risk."

"Well, I can concede you that," Mark said, a smile that was inexplicible to Jackie growing on his face. "To be perfectly truthful, I haven't thought about it, but I'm not too crazy about kids, anyway. I mean, I was never very happy with myself as a kid. All I ever wanted to do was to grow up so I could get away from kids."

"I guess you're right. I mean, I've spent a lot of time with Johnnie, and I know what a pain he can be. It's almost like I've had a kid of my own, and why bother? But that's not the point, and you know it."

"Jackie," he said, "There's a risk that you'll get smacked by a drunken driver the next time you walk across the causeway. Or chomped up by an alligator the next time you go swimming. We have to live with risks. These things happen. I guess all I can say is that I can risk it with you, if you can risk it with me. I'm falling in love with you, and that's worth a fair amount of risk."

"I'm falling in love with you, too," she said. "And, I think we'd better go up to the tent and get a beer and relax, or we're going to have to go up to the tent and go inside."

"I'd just as soon lay here and look at you," Mark smiled. "If we go up to the tent, you're going to have to put your top on."

Jackie blushed and looked down at herself. Sure enough, her bikini top was laying in the sand; it had to have come off a long time before. No wonder Mark's hand had felt so warm on her breast!

She took the top in one hand, and pulled him into a sitting position with the other. "Let's go get that beer," she said. "At least you told me before Roger and Kathy got back down here."

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